Two and a half years ago, I decided to do a list of 101 things to complete in 1001 days. I did manage to accomplish several things on that list, but life took over. I was without a job and depressed about that and a few other personal issues. I didn’t accomplish many of the simple things that I should have accomplished. Every time I opened up the window to blog, I felt like it was failure staring me in the face. So I just didn’t blog. I didn’t open the website. In the last two and a half years, I think I’ve looked at my website five or six times. Most of what had me depressed is a little too personal to put on here, but suffice it to say that no matter how good a plan looks on paper, things just don’t always go as planned. It’s very frustrating to be a planner (I always have been, even though I usually procrastinate when it comes to following through) and have things out of your control. Things that should work, don’t always work, often with no obvious reason. I think what I’ve learned the most in the last two and a half years is that no matter how much I want to have control over my life and my plans, sometimes I just need to sit back and relax.
Relaxing is something that has always been hard for me. I’m a very high-strung person. I worry about everything. And I do mean EVERYTHING. I also realize that if I don’t sit back and relax, it is eventually going to take a toll on my health. So I’m working on it. By no means am I going to completely stop worrying about everything – that would be completely out of my nature. However, I am going to try my best to only worry about things that I truly need to worry about. I’m hoping that by starting fresh with my blog, I’ll write here more often. And by writing more often, I’m hoping it will help my stress level.
My 101 in 1001 list doesn’t “expire” until September, but I’m calling it quits for now. I’m going to come up with a new list. This time, I want the list to be more fun. It shouldn’t be a chore or something that I feel I have to do. It should be something I want to do.
That being said, here are some of the things off my old list that I did accomplish.
I met someone in real life that I’ve talked to online. In May 2010, Jack and I took a somewhat spontaneous roadtrip to Tulsa, Oklahoma for a record release party. Jack has talked to a member of the band for a long time, and was a member of a message board with this person. After we met, I also became a member of the message board and talked to a lot of awesome people. Many of those people made the trip to Oklahoma for the record release. It was truly awesome and one of the most memorable moments of my life.
I sold something on ebay. Actually, a few things. That goal is pretty self-explanatory and I’m not sure why it was so important to me two and a half years ago.
I watched 50 movies. This really wasn’t hard to accomplish seeing as how I was depressed and we have Starz, Encore, HBO, and Cinemax.
We got another kitten. Two, in fact. We got Matilda in August 2009 and Pocket in February 2011. Altogether, with Delilah, that makes three cats. Our house often feels like the middle of a stampede. We also got two cat condos/perches for our girls.
Jack and I managed to go to Ocean City, Maryland in August 2010. I’m not really sure how we pulled that of without me working. We have also attended a few baseball games and have gone to the zoo. We also had the opportunity to go see Trans-Siberian Orchestra before Christmas 2010. And Jack has introduced me to the wonderful world of drive-in movies. We’ve been to the drive-in several times and I don’t think I really have much of a desire to go to a regular movie theatre again, unless it’s a newer theatre.
As far as purchases, this is where we really accomplished a lot. I got a Vermont Teddy Bear, a Tatty Teddy, a Cricut, the Sims 3, and the Prima Guides for Sims 1/Sims 2. Out of necessity, we had to get a “new” car. In January 2010, my car died on the way to work. It wasn’t worth fixing so we had to get a new car. And in March 2011, we got another car. This time it wasn’t because we had to, it was because I finally had a steady job and we were able to replace the old car before it died. And because of my new job, we also bought a king bed in April 2011. We also bought a like-new DSLR camera that one of Jack’s friends sold for $150.
Beyond that, I didn’t accomplish much else. I didn’t lose weight, I haven’t been watching what I eat, and I didn’t care too much about my health. That is changing. I bought an exercise bike, I’m following Weight Watchers, and the difference this time is that I am determined. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself when the only person who can change it is me.
If you’ve managed to read this far, congratulations. I don’t think my entries will typically be this long, but it really does feel good to get all of that off my chest.